In the Silence

 

Have you ever felt alone? Even in a crowded room. You are there in the bleakness. In the silence. In the emptiness, truly and utterly alone. It is a sadness, that wells up inside you. Your heart overflows.

You have no idea where it comes from. You just know that there is a sorrow in your very soul. You have done everything right, the world just seems to cover you. To weigh you down. Sometimes the weight of it you don’t recognize. It makes you tired. Lifeless. You can’t seem to muster the energy to get out of bed.

Your body physically aches. Even your bones are tired. You force yourself to be involved. Your family needs you. You clean, cook, soothe. You love them more than anything else in the world. You just wish you had the energy, the patience for it all.

Maybe you are worried what other people will think of you? Judgement. How can you be a christian and be depressed. Why is God not enough. Why can’t you just be happy?

Depression is not an easy fix. You don’t just wake up one day and miraculously you are better. It takes time. It takes help. From your loved ones. God is enough, He holds you every night you are crying, so quietly as to not wake the house.

He sees all your wounds. He longs to relieve the ache of your heart. While I do 100% support Anti-depressants. You can not just pop a pill, and make everything better. Not everyone’s depression is the same. You do not fit in a mold.

This is a blog post, so keeping that in mind. Depression is something we can talk about and we will. We will learn to share with one another, because you never know what someone is going through. You never know, when you will be able to comfort someone else who is in need.

NKJV 2 Corinthians 1 3&4- “Blessed be the God and father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all COMFORT, who comforts us in all our tribulation that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”